Exhilarating (Exciting) Time - last 2 days

So there is only 2 more days left of work for me for the year, then im on a well deserved break from this god forsaken town. JHB - great place, viby, fast and undoubtably stimulating. However, this place, this pace cracks even the strongest of us and will bring you to your knee's, begging for a break. After a tough year, and I am yet to meet someone who says it wasnt that bad - yea right! Its been a trying / testing year for us all and knowing that I have minimal days left in this maximum work prison, makes me excited. Although there is a ton of things to get through before we can actually close it off, pack it up and say goodbye to this year, we need to close off and make sure that things that are closed and finished dont return in the new year to bite me in the ass. So busy i may be .... but it will be worth it for the last couple of days.

Plett here we come ...WOOO Hooo.

Sometime it becomes clear what needs to be done, sometimes you need to step yourself out of a situation to see the bigger picture. Lately I been doing just that, instead of been pulled in and succomb to the negative feelings and the emotional roller coater that you board and ride before you know it. I been "learning" (well trying to, at least) react differently, if at all. So, lets get to the point here, time outs - good to get away from it all, detach from the situation and retract and begin to recover. I think getting out of the environment you in allows you to look at other things instead of been focused on the rut you have become stuck in. It's not an instant process and probably takes a little while to master, but because i been so focused on and trying my best to get things better, i think im coming on in leaps and bounds. insecurities seem to be slowly dissapating and anger seems to fizzle out before it bubbles and boils over. I love my girlfriend, thats one thing im sure of and i would do anything to be a better man for the woman that I want to spend the rest of my life with.

Sunday @ Sun City

Great finish to a weekend that that looked like disaster was going to strike. Sun city was great, it wasnt too hot, been a little overcast when we arrived, getting sunnier towards the late afternoon. The beach wasnt too full but not empty making it an enjoyable day in the sun. There was a beauty pageant on and lots of little "poppies" from pretoria running around. made for some funny jokes between Sam and I. Once we had gone down the super tubes and had a cocktail and beer at the top pool, we decided to mission down to the cascades pool, for those been that side of town, you will know that there are 2 pools, one been an slightly colder than the other. into the colder of the 2 cascades pools, is a kiddies slide. Sam decided to go down this with the kids and i couldnt stop laughing at her, you just had to be there to see it. We went on a walk about through the walkways of the cascades "forest" and took a picture or two, we strolled through the setting up of the million dollar challenge which is on this weekend. The entire day was good, we laughed and had tons of fun, reconnected with one another and it felt like our relationship took one huge leap forward. For us that is good. Thats my rubbish for today!

no such thing: love?

Here we go again, same old shit just a different day. This is exactly how things go when u
think all is well, when really, it isn't! Is it possible that things can ever get better,
you have a good day and then at the end of it all everything just spins out of control,
emotions run high and in a blink of an eye, well, u get the idea. So how do you hold the
reigns of emotions?
Or do you let things run or do you walk? I'm curious at what point is enough, enough?
Do you stick around cause you think things will get better? Do you stick around cause of something called love?
Is there such a thing ad love left, or has it become convenience? I think I have finally lost faith in what ever love is supposed to be. Love is a verb, an action people tell me. They say
when you love nothing can come between two people, but I disagree, I think you need more than
love, I think there are several factors that feature in a relationship. I think that respect is a key factor cause everything else
Comes under that, I mean if you don't respect someone, how the hell can you claim to love them?
Trust, mmm, another huge factor, you claim to love someone but you cheating behind there back, yea, whatever. My views on that are pretty straight. Once a cheater, always a cheater.
Don't be with someone if your eyes are wondering everywhere else. Guess people want the best of both. Anyway, heavy for a saturday night, I know. Let's leave it at this; for different people loves means different things.
For me, well, I don't think I believe in it anymore.
And that's my rubbish for tonight.